Squalls bunk

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 12:11 am

"I'm nothing with the thing that matters most..."

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 12:14 am

I look up at him my eyes watering and my cheeks covered with wet and dry tears my eyes ringed in black and red from crying and the inability to sleep "I miss my warm lion king my old lion king scar and all."

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 12:17 am

"I miss you too" I said "but how can we be in love if we can't feel it"

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 12:19 am

I smile with it reaching my eyes "We try and ride with the wind hoping it works."

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 12:27 am

I placed her hand on my chest. "I would try it but" I faltered still not feeling her hand.

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 12:30 am

I kissed his forehead "For me?"

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 12:42 am

I sighed. "Did you just kiss my forehead?" I asked as I looked at her. "I seriously can't feel a thing...blood loss and clinically emo don't mix"

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 12:46 am

I walk in and trow the bag of ambrosia at Squall "Eat it." I say handing the nectar to Kessie while Jaceon walks over to Squall and licks his hand whining
"He misses you as much as I do..." I whisper holding a spoon full of ambrosia in front of Squall's mouth figuring he'll eat it "And yes I did."

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 12:57 am

I ate it even though I didn't want to I figured if it worked miracles it would at least let me feel physically.

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 12:59 am

I smile and feed him some more "I feel like Rinoa I hurt you terribly but I want you back."

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 1:05 am

I tensen. "Rinoa hurt me a lot..but even she didn't effect me like this...Aerith would've but then again Cloud would've chopped me to little peices"

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 1:08 am

"I'm a terrible person for doing this to you..." I whisper feeding him some more ambrosia before getting the thermos of nectar "Open."

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 1:09 am

"Yes nurse Kessie" I said then open my mouth

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 1:12 am

I barely smile and tip the cup into his open mouth "You should be released in about an hour." I whisper putting the thermos down "Now back to us..." I sigh looking down at my hands

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 1:15 am

I nodded as I shifted a little then winced in pain. There go my nerves turning back on. " o-ok"

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 1:18 am

I sit down and watch in case anything happens to Kessie
I wring my hands and sigh "I-I'm sorry I did that yesterday. I was just scared that you would find someone better and leave me for her I-I hate that feeling and I'm sorry."

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 1:23 am

"Your forgiven...but may I say this...your blind if you think I could find anyone better than you, plus I look like I faced down a bear and lost so the chances of me even getting a girl is zero, and plus I couldn't even get out of bed"

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 1:27 am

I sigh and turn around ending up on my butt not able to look at him it hurt. I rip my necklace off and put it on the floor "I hate this thing."

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 1:29 am

"I told you I'm not good for you I only hurt you" I whispered as I started to bring my knees to my chest slowly

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 1:33 am

"I hurt you more than you ever hurt me I always end up being the one to hurt you and I hate myself for it..." I whisper looking at my necklace

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 1:36 am

I put my hand over the necklace. "It's my fault for wanting to protect you so badly...I lost you once and couldn't handle losting you forever"

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 1:40 am

I put my hand over his and sigh "I don't like it when I hurt you when I hurt you it hurts me twice as much because I know I'm the reason you no longer feel anything."
I sit and watch Jaceon sitting closer I hand sign him that if Squall hurts her to bite his hand

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 1:48 am

I looked at her then kissed her on the cheek. "Kessie...it's not your fault I'm already damaged goods"

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 1:52 am

I smile "So am I but I still... love you." I whisper a tear drop falling
I smile "He's got her Jaceon we can go." I say standing and leaving but Jaceon doesn't follow he stays

Subject: Re: Squalls bunk 7/18/2011, 2:10 am

I smiled but then Jet walked in. "Leonhart, I have a project for you" he said. I glared. "I'm in the middle of something!"

"Oh right...sorry ill just come back when you guys aren't having a moment" he said leaving